Welp. I’ll just admit it. No shame here. My creative juices just aren’t flowing these days and I can’t even tell you or me why. Can’t quite put my finger on it.

I haven’t blogged in over a month. And even my last few blogs were spaced out by a week or 2 at a time. The last few blogs are reactions or perspectives concerning our current situation…either the pandemic or political rhetoric. Mainly because we are inundated daily with both topics. And honestly, I don’t want to talk about either anymore. Tired…

It’s been 9 months of working from home. I occasionally return to the work site but there isn’t many people around. I may see up to 10 people. No water cooler discussions. No more shared water coolers or coffee. Weird huh?

Who would’ve ever imagined this to be life. Well it is. And I’m living it quite well. I’m not complaining. I’m making the best of a bad situation. I have my family and that’s all that matters. We are safe. We are loved. We are together. We are happy.

At the start of this pandemic, many celebrities, artists, and speakers were promoting how this was the best time to go after your dreams and goals. With so much extra time at home, why not use it effectively? Why not use this time to conduct research, put ideas on paper, create designs, or launch a new business?

Well that sounded good. Looks good on paper. But it has not and isn’t working for me. Procrastination on an all-time high. I’ve never put something off like I have now. I have nothing to say. Well I don’t have much to say. I have a lot I could continue to say about our predicament but no desire there.

What could be wrong? Could it be that people or being engaged with people created this level of creativity that I’m yearning for? Meaning, is it possible that this isolation is causing this? Not being around people is hindering my creativity, is what I’m wondering. As I wouldn’t have ever thought this to be the case. But maybe I’ve been gaining ideas and perspectives from those daily interactions.

Anyone else feel like this? Surely this can’t just be me. One thing is for sure, I’m not pushing it anymore. When I first started on this path of “nothingness,” for a lack of better words, I was wreaking my brain to come up with more new material. It was difficult at the beginning but I’d push through.

On some of those off weeks, I actually would start blogs, but couldn’t finish them. I have several in draft form that weren’t making the cut for me. I’d lose the vision on them and chose to retreat and revisit it later. Later would never come. And if I’m being honest, I started and finished this blog a week ago. Sigh

So now what? Do I call it quits? No, my heart isn’t in quitting. I believe I have more. Is this a break? No, I’m not sure it’s that either. So for now, I’m just taking it one week at a time. Taking it one blog at a time. If inspiration comes, I’ll write. If it doesn’t, I won’t force it.

What advice can I even provide you, who may be feeling this same way? It may not be writing, but whatever your passion is; if things aren’t flowing right now, you don’t have to give up. You don’t have to quit on your dreams or goals. Maybe our world being “closed” is causing this lack of creativity. I’m not sure. But I encourage you to keep going. Rather you do anything this month or not. Doesn’t matter when. Doesn’t matter if you take a break or not. Just like life is on hold for so many things, your efforts can be on hold too. This doesn’t have to be the end.

It is what it is. Creativity…hindered…but not closed.

Thanks for your attention. Remember you are your own competition.

Competition of 1.