Sometimes I swear I’m scared as cow manure.

But there is no time for that. I must run on. One thing about purpose that I’ve learned is that it is scary yet so fulfilling. But it can’t be fulfilling if you stay where you are out of fear. It’s called trusting the process. With so many unknowns ahead, it is very hard to trust that thing you want so bad. Questions I not only I ask myself:

Do you want it bad enough to fail at it? Fail and yet start again? Do you want it bad enough that you taste it? It’s tastes sweet when you think of it and sour at the same time.

That is where I am right now. I have a million and three ‘what ifs’ going on in my head that are producing a stomach full of butterflies. They won’t leave me alone. Breathing techniques not working. Relaxing meditating is only temporary. While on this journey, what can I do ‘in the meantime?”

F.A.I.T.H.

That’s all I have. That is all I need. I choose faith. Boldly walking in it. Fear has no place here. Get out of my way. I know what I heard, you can’t change my mind. Gave Him my word.

I just want to thank God for the dream. The mere fact that I dreamt it, made it mines! Butterflies be gone. No place for you here. I bind every negative thought and word that comes my way.

When Will Smith shared his sky diving experience he said that the moment fear leaves, bliss comes in. And you are left wondering why you wasted time ever being afraid in the first place.

Thanks for your attention. Remember you are your own competition.

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