The easy answer is if I have pissed someone off, they’d tell me. Ummm no, they wouldn’t. People know I’m from J-town and don’t play. I was raised by a thug. Hahahahaa those that know my mom would laugh at that.

But those that know me now, know I’m a very spiritual person, hardworking, fair and honest. 🗣But she undercover crazy and will fight. LOL Just kidding. A little bit kidding.

But here’s the thing. I’m always posting about saving marriages, encouraging things, and overall finding your purpose. I wonder if people are sick of me yet. This is what has crossed my mind here lately. Rightfully so.

Someone loosely mentioned to me many year’s ago, “you always doing things. You always got something going on.” Well in real time, that can be both positive and negative depending on the narrative.

With me, I believe I’m doing something positive. It’s something that’s needed but it doesn’t mean I’m always welcomed into everyone’s space. I’m sure folks are rolling their eyes at me. Maybe they have gone through a divorce and have no desire to hear about me fighting for my marriage.

That’s real talk. Think about it. We all are guilty of hating on someone for doing what we aren’t doing. Let me make it plain. I can recall after having my daughter really trying to get the weight off but I wasn’t quite making any strides.

I wasn’t losing, but others I know, were successful. At first it was like “oh ok that’s good.” But as they continue to lose weight and I continued to stand still with all this baby fat, I began to see their progress on social media and roll my eyes. Yeah I did. And you can miss me with your judgement because I know you’ve done the same. Nah (licks out tongue).

I’m willing to admit it. I started to resent folks losing weight. But one thing about me, I’m very self aware so it didn’t take me long at all to realize that I was out of order. I was hating on people and needed to stop. So until I got my own mind right and eating habits under control, I had no right to be upset with them for meeting and exceeding their goals.

Hell I’m eating a donut now while typing this blog. Lol now fall back, I don’t eat a donut every day. But I’m having one today and not ashamed about it. I still could stand to lose 12, 22, ummm 52 pounds. 👀 But until then, it’s no one’s fault but mines. So when I see my hometown girl, Jasmine Smith-Harrison, post a picture of her journey from over 500lbs to under 200lbs, I celebrate with that beauty.

So since I know I’ve done it and others are human too, I’m almost positive my journey isn’t welcomed by all. And it is ok. What I’m doing isn’t meant to be an attack on anyone. Just the same as someone losing weight had nothing to do with me. But what it is, it is a reminder.

Seeing someone succeed and meet their goals, no matter what it is, it may be a reminder to someone of their shortcomings. It may hurt to see someone pass a test we sucked at. It may be a stab in the back when fighting for marriage appears easy to me yet they are divorced or currently going through one.

People have always misjudged me. I’m used to that. But if you are one that thought or think my marriage life or family life is perfect and I have no right to say I’ll fight when I’ve had nothing to fight for, puuuu you must haven’t read my book. Get you a copy and then come for me.

This thing ain’t easy. Life isn’t easy. I’m just good at being Nakia. That’s it. I’m ambitious, knowledge seeking, and extremely self aware. I love challenges and if my social life could afford me to be a nerd, I’d be a good one. But the way my life is set up, it won’t let me be great.

If what I’m doing offends you, I’m sorry. Well, no I’m not. Well, I’m a little bit sorry. I’m sorry that I haven’t convinced you to be your best self. Sorry if I haven’t encouraged you to draft your goals and to seek them. That’s my purpose with this blog site so if I’ve turned that positivity around to now pissivity, I’m sorry. That we never my intention.

If I’m a negative reminder for you, I encourage you to explore those feelings and determine the root cause. Pray deeply about those things and humbly ask God to help you in those areas. He will. He wants you to succeed. He wants you to be victorious.

Never mind me. I’m just on assignment.

Thank you for your attention. Remember you are your own competition.

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